You said I am fine When I lost my shine Tell me to feel nothing I absolutely feel something Force me to get busy I think it's so frizzy Now you act you are the boss Don't you even know how much I feel lost?
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Today, I was heading to a toilet nearby my class. When I wanted to enter the toilet I saw a cleaner and he looked at me and he said " Miss mau ke toilet ya?" meaning "Are you going to the toilet miss?". I said "Yes, I am sorry". Inside the toilet i thought "Wait what? Why did I say I am sorry?"
About six years ago when I was in University I texted one of my lecturer to ask her whether she would have a make up class or not. I still remember the first sentence of my text was " Maaf ibu apakah hari ini kita ada kelas pengganti hari ini?" meaning "I am sorry maam, will we have make up class today?". She didn't reply. At the Evening, she came to our class and asked which one was me. I raised my hand and i really scared if I made mistakes. She said "Why did you ask for forgiveness in your text when you didn't do anything wrong to me?" I couldn't say a thing. Then she continued " My dear, instead of using I AM SORRY the proper word is EXCUSE ME, I know our culture made confusion on when to use SORRY and EXCUSE ME". What about in your country? I just posted my selfie picture in my Facebook a teacher from my Junior High School commented " Perasaan koq kurusan? or in Enlish "You look skinnier". Two days ago after 4 years finally I met my High School Senior and he said " Lah, koq kurus banget" meaning "What? You are so skinny". I sent my non-hijab picture to my mom and she asked me to stop sending her my selfie picture because she thought I look like a zombie, LOL.
So here's the story, Years ago i was around 60 kg and my height was only 150cm. I had a chubby cheek, fat tummy and probaby looked so ugly till I got bully. I still clearly remember a boy said " If she (me) is the only one girl in this world I still don't want to be her BF". Ugh! I felt embarassed of how i looked, I felt down, till I hated myself at that time. In 2011 Once I started my university I begun to do my diet by only eating rice for my lunch and do some regular excercises. ( In Indonesia, we usually have rice for breakfast, lunch and dinner. And we'll say " I haven't eat" when we haven't eat rice even we already ate sandwiches, hotdogs or whatever.) It wasn't work well till I only lost around 10 kg in 4 years HAHAHAH. Two months ago I started to do zumba twice a week and sticked to my diet. Now I am 44 kg and my height is still 150. I lost my chubby cheek but then they said I am a little bit skinny. While they know I still do zumba till now they keep saying "Are you gonna loose more weight? You need to gain a little bit more weight not loosing it". But now I don't really care of what they say because I am Happy to do zumba and it's also because no matter how your body shape is you will always need excercise to keep your body health. Aaaaaaand plus Inner beauty is more important in living the life as a human. Because “What's the whole point of being pretty on the outside when you’re so ugly on the inside?” ― Jess C. Scott, I'm Pretty Yesterday we have Bahasa class after lunch time. The 2 classes divided into two different groups based on their level. A special needs student I teach is in group B so I stay with him in the classroom. We were discussing about Putri Mandalika (Princess Mandalika) a folktale from Indonesia.
A week ago Bahasa teacher told them the story and asked the students to re-tell the story by changing a part of the story. It can be the beginning, the middle, or the ending . After I made visual cues to help him memorize the story he started write his own and he decided to change the ending of the story. Then yesterday the teacher asked them to tell their own story in front of the class. An Australian girl raised her hand and begun to tell her story. After she finished then suddenly he raised his hand bravely and said “Miss, I wanna tell my story”. I was typing something on the computer and I didn’t ask him to do so at all. Because usually I prompt him to try to speak in front of the class. Even the teacher was shocked because he never done such a thing before. He is into math but not really into literacy moreover it was in Bahasa. After he finished telling the class his story I walked towards him and did high five. He smile proudly and suddenly I feel like the world is mine. Hi, My name is Aidah but I prefer to be called by Aida, without 'h' in the end. Aida is sound cuter, isn't it? Just my closest friends and family know my real name is Aidah but most of them call me Aida. Oh yeah before you read the rest of my post i am so sorry if there will be so many grammatical errors since English isn't my first language but i do fall in love with English so i won't give up to learn about it . *Uh, sounds so positive :D
Anyway I am Indonesian and have been living in this country my whole life. I wish i can spend some years of my life to live in another country, like Australia or Japan. Unfortunately i never stay more than a week in some countries i visited and i think living for like a year or more in another country will enrich your knowledge and make you more open minded. Just like some foreigners i am working with now. Aaand i just started my new life! yeay! A new Job? Nope.. I am enjoying my job now Just got married? Nope, I think i am still too young for it Adopted new pets? I wish... Then? So here's the thing, few days ago i talked to my best friend if i wanted to have something new in my life. Something that in the future i'll say "I am glad i did it instead of I wish i did it" it's actually a quote but i am not sure who said that. I am into reading but not really enjoying writing and I can spend hours of my after work time to check my Instagram while drinking Teh Kotak. ( It's an easy ready to drink sweet tea in a carton box, believe me you haven't taste it, you haven't live). This life style is such a waste, i need something beneficial for my brain and body. Then I came up with this ideas for march : 1. I will FORCE my self to write a blog every day. 2. I will try not to update my Instagram story or uploading new picts within a month 3. I will try to change Teh kotak with mineral water or milk instead Even it looks so simple but It's totally a new life for me and I am such a lucky girl in this world for having a beautiful best friend who always support me and even she helps me to monitor number 2 ideas and the slice of life challenges on March definitely helps me in number 1. Then for number 3? I wish i can believe myself Hahahah |
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January 2023
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